My Well-Traveled Road of Disappointment

“Remember that time my BF offered to take me away for a weekend with friends because I didn’t have the money to go?

Yeah, me neither.”

So my friends are all headed to Baltimore for the weekend. Because I don’t have the money to go, I’m not.

I thought maybe the boyfriend was going to man-up and offer to take me away for the weekend (something he hasn’t done in the five years we’ve known each other). With wishful thinking, I requested a vacation day today. I coordinated a weekend trade of kid responsibilities with my Ex. But two weeks after our email exchanges discussing it, there has been no follow-up or offer from the boyfriend for me to go.

I don’t know why, but my disappointment is so overwhelming.

Our last email exchange about this trip was that he would “get back to me” about the questions I presented. He didn’t. And I don’t feel that it’s my place to remind him. Nor do I feel that I need to beg for someone who supposedly cares so deeply about me to do something nice for me.

So instead, I will be home all weekend, kid-free, feeling sorry for myself that I let myself be disappointed again.

Before you start thinking ‘well, if you wanted to go, you should pay for yourself.’ Yes, I know this. I do not expect, nor have I ever expected, a man to fund my fun. As I stated before, I have paid my way over the past five years. I have never been comfortable with letting someone pay for me.

I don’t expect anything from others that I wouldn’t do myself.

I’m hoping that I can channel my tears and frustration into a cleaning frenzy so this vacation day and kid-free weekend isn’t a total waste. The weather is supposed to be beautiful, so I’m hoping to be able to take the bike to the trails, clear my head, and get some exercise.

It doesn’t matter how much you care about a person, it doesn’t turn them into the person you wish they could be.

UPDATE: I wake up Saturday morning to an email “This trip would be more fun with you.” So I reply that I’m not there because of him. I forward the unanswered questions email to him. His reply: “I thought we had a conversation about that.” Another reply indicates that he needs to quit having conversations in his head with me because I can’t hear them. No kidding! Boys R Dumb!

Posted on May 3, 2013, in Finances, Ramblings, Relationships. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

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